I've been seeing a lot of blog posts lately on the topic of comparison. I've written a couple posts on this topic myself, actually. It's something that I think we all struggle with. Especially as women. And especially in the age of social media, where everyone's business is everyone's business. It's impossible to ignore the avalanche of images we are bombarded with every day - of people going, doing, and getting. As bloggers, we see these images even more often than your average Jane. Every day we read new posts about new things - many of them material things. And it fuels the desire we all have to have the best, be the best and do the best. It's only natural. It's natural to feel the inclination to compare your lifestyle to the lifestyle of those around you, and even to wish for things that you don't have.
What's unnatural? Being unable to be happy for others in their successes. Being so clouded by worry and stress that you can't feel joy for those around you.
And I admit - this is something I've struggled with recently. I've never had this problem until now. And honestly, it's not that I'm not happy for those around us. It's really not. Because I am. It always brings a smile to my face to see or hear about someone I love having their socks blessed off. So, it's not that. It's really more the case of wondering where the good is for our little family. As B and I are struggling through a tough spot in our lives right now, I at times feel myself wondering, "Why?" Why do we have to deal with all of this right now? Why do we have to live under the weight of so much stress right now? Why can't we experience some of the same blessings that our friends and family are getting to enjoy? Why, why, why?
I have a lot of questions. And honestly? I have no answers. There's just not an answer right now. For right now, the answer is, "I don't know." I've prayed. And prayed. And prayed some more. And now I'm just trusting that B and I are going through this challenging season in our lives because this is exactly where God wants us to be. He's with us through every little bit of it. He has a plan for our lives. And there's something to be learned from it. I know that patience is one of those things. Patience is a virtue I would never claim to have an abundance of, so that is something that I am wrestling with every day. It drives me crazy that I don't know where my little family will be in just a few short months. It drives me crazy that I don't know whether or not B will be able to move forward in specializing in Orthopedics. It drives me batty not knowing what will happen with the sale of our house. Or the future of my (much unloved) job and career. Or with my desire to stay at home with my son.
For now, I am going to just keep on celebrating the wonderful things happening in the lives of my family and friends - friends from both real life and from the blog. Family and friends who are buying new homes, starting new business ventures, preparing for new chapters in their lives (marriage and babies!), landing wonderful new jobs, getting promotions, and more. There's always something to be celebrated, and that's how I like it. So we'll keep on celebrating. And I will just keep on praying that one day soon, we'll have some good news of our own to share!
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose.